Dear J,

Today I viewed the studio in the East End. The neighborhood was quaint. It was nice and quiet and just had a good vibe to it. Of course I visited in the evening so during the day it may be more active but I don't think it'll be too bad. The landlord, Rush, seems like a really nice guy. The studio is in the basement of a 2-story house and I thought it was quaint(my new fav word of the moment). It has its own private entrance on the side of the house so I won't always have to go into the entrance of the house and down the stairs. The laundry room is right outside of the hallway and it is not coin-op which is amazing. Off to the left in the hall is the kitchen. The kitchen is small and has a mini-fridge which is kind of odd, but I don't have much groceries in my regular-sized fridge now nor do I usually have so I think this fridge should work out for me. Only issue I can really think of is frozen pizzas in the freezer, but we'll manage. Past the kitchen we have the studio space which consists of the living room/dining room/bedroom. I believe the size of the unit is practically the size of my place now. The bathroom is about average size and it has a shower only, which is fine cause I never bathe. And here's what may be my favorite part about the apartment and what may have ultimately won me over. It has a 8x15 storage area. I could just imagine storing a lot of my boxes and things I rarely use in there. It may also be a neat spot to do some photo shoots. I was so impressed with this place that I actually filled out the application. I still need to pay the application fee of $20, which is refunded on your first month's rent. How cool is that? I will pay for it on Monday and after the credit check I will then know if I'm approved to move in. I have good credit so I don't see why not. The landlord lives next door as well which I view as a positive. If I have any issues I can just walk over and knock on his door. He also mentioned that I may be able to get wireless internet as well, so if that's the case then I won't reconnect Comcast and I'll save myself $59.34 a month which I could use toward paying my credit card and buying food.

Well enough about the new place now let's talk about my night at Hookah Bookah with Pavel. Really not that exciting I just realized that I'm terrible at smoking hookah. Maybe it's because I was stuffy. Sometimes I would get a lot of smoke, sometimes barely a puff. It was still enjoyable but I now I have a headache from all the smoke. I can still taste grape in my throat but I like it. *sigh* The environment at Hookah Bookah is alright but some of those kids were quite obnoxious but what do you expect at a hookah bar. I had a Pomegranate Fruity Smoothie which was quite delicious. I think this place is worth visiting again with more people...maybe while we're intoxicated, ha.

Oh and now onto "Bitch Fest 2009". After Hookah Bookah Pavel and I were hungry and decided to go to Eat'n Park as usual. During our marvelous 2 AM feast we were interrupted by, "Hey you want him? You like what you see?" The sounds of a drunken black woman yelling at these 2 white women. Apparently the black woman's male friend had just gotten up and went to the bathroom and I believe, though I didn't see, that the white women were looking at him. One of the white women replied, "What are you talking about?"

What I can recall from their dispute:
Black Woman: Do you want him? You can have him?
White Woman: No thanks.
Black Woman: Why not? You don't like black men?
White Woman: What?
Black Woman: I saw you checking him out. You don't like black men?
White Woman: No I don't.
Black Woman: Oh why cause he's black?! What type of man do you like?
White Woman: STRAIGHT WHITE MEN
Black Woman: Well why were you checking out his ass then?
White Woman: What are you talking about?
Black Woman: I saw you.
White Woman: Hey we don't want your man.
Black Woman: He's not my man...and who's she your lesbian lover?
Other White Woman: Yes I am. Do you want to watch?
Black Woman: Bitch I will kick your ass!

Then the black woman gets up and gets in the white woman's face and I believe she pushes her. The white woman stands up and she's like "wtf?!" The black woman then goes back to her seat and argues more then I believe she takes her earrings out and goes back to the white woman.

Black Woman: Bitch let's go! Do you want to be punched in the face?

This is around the time the Eat'n Park employees notice what is happening and decide to intervene. One of the managers stands between the black woman and the white women and breaks up the fight. The black guy returns from the bathroom and is so confused about what is going on. He kept saying, "I just went to the bathroom." The 2 of them go to the checkout area where the black woman is still flipping shit and wanted to fight with "those 2 ugly bitches" as she called them. The black guy is like, "I just went to the bathroom and I come back and now it's like the Twilight Zone!" He eventually paid and the 2 of them left. The best part was when he had to pick her up in the parking lot and carry her to their vehicle. She was laughing and flipping off the women as they passed the window. It was amazing. Oh after they left the Dormont Police came. One of the employees called '911' during the incident. Two officers showed up, it was ridiculous and too late. Gotta love them Po-Po!

Well that concludes another day in the fabulous life of Kevin Dao....NOT!!!!

Oh that fight at the Eat'n Park reminded me of this clip:

I just watched a very excellent, moving documentary about small-town Texas teenager, Shelby Knox, who becomes an advocate for sex education when she tries to improve the county's sky-high teen pregnancy rate by challenging her high school's policy of teaching abstinence. This girl is absolutely amazing and I am very impressed to see a high school student with such high morals and determination. She makes me feel incredibly lazy and makes me want to get involved with an important cause in order to make a change. I have never been involved with any type of organization, or have never volunteered for anything. Maybe it's time I look into something worthwhile. There were moments during this film that I actually got really emotional and teary-eyed. I'm not sure if I'm just awkwardly sensitive lately, or if I'm depressed and everything is getting to me. I need to call that apartment tomorrow to see if I can view it. I also need to go grocery shopping. I'm out of food yet again. Well on a brighter note my spirits have been lifted somewhat at the sight of this delightful YouTube video.

Wow I suck! It's been over a year since I last updated. Does anyone even use LJ anymore? I deleted my MySpace and Facebook doesn't appeal to me, so LJ is where I'm staying. This site seems more personal and less annoying compared to those other two. This is just a quick note to let the few friends I have on here know that I'm still alive and I plan on updating more often.

Peace,
Kevin

P.S. I love these things.

Dear Journal,

It has been over a good 6 months and I think it is time for an update. Let's see I start my 3rd Quarter of school next Tuesday. I am so ready to get back, this 2 week break has been extremely boring and lonely. I did manage to get out last weekend. I went to the Andy Warhol Museum with Aaron and a couple of his friends, Cory and Cody. It is amazing. I wish I could have met Warhol. He seemed so interesting. My favorite exhibit is the "Silver Clouds". I could spend hours in that room. I do have pictures which I'll post later. There were also some installation pieces by Bruce Nauman.This is my favorite:

Bruce Nauman
One Hundred Live and Die
1984

I also took a tour of the Alcosan Wastewater Treatment Plant which was quite odd but pretty entertaining. It's nice to know where the clean water comes from. Those 2 things are the highlights of my break so far. I still have 3 days for something else to happen. I'd like to go to this tomorrow: I Made It! 3 At the Brewhouse! SATURDAY, September 29, 2007, 12 - 5 pm, 2100 Mary Street, South Side, Pittsburgh. They are supposed to have some pretty sweet stuff including plastic dinosaur jewelry and vegan baked goods. =D I'll probably need some cash though since they're vendors.

Now to the terrible tragedy of Labor Day weekend. I lost my best friend and companion, Benny, my cat. This broke my heart. I only had him for a few weeks and then he came down with an upper respiratory infection and died on September 2. I was with him in his last moments. I tried to clear his throat but I think it was too much. He couldn't breathe. I freaked out. I had a feeling this moment was going to come. When he first got sick I tried to get rides to the vet from 2 of the only people I knew that had cars but they didn't come through for me. I was terribly disappointed. I thought friends are supposed to be there whenever their friends really need them. This is a time I really needed a good friend for help and a shoulder to lean on but I had no one. On the day he died I practically went through my entire phone book and only got a hold of a few people. Aaron, who I'm so fortunate for, drove me to Lee and Joanne's house to bury Benny in their backyard. They would have been there for me but they were out of the country on vacation. It was the hardest thing I've ever went through. I still can't look at photos of Benny without getting upset. The little time I got to spend with him was the happiest I've been since I've lived here. Now I'm alone again with hardly anyone to talk to except for my mom and Janet. I talk to them everyday. I'm starting to learn who my real friends are. Those who have no clue my cat has passed are obviously not very close to me and I don't really care to speak with them.

It's tough being so alone but I'm here for school and to work on making a future for myself. If I have to go through this without friends let it be.

Well I'm going to drown myself in tea and try to get some sleep. I have things I want to get done tomorrow. Maybe I'll withdrawal some cash and go to that vendor event. I think it's going to be pretty sweet. Sucks I have to go alone but oh well.

Goodnight,
Kevin

I haven't updated this in forever. I have officially made it to Pittsburgh!!!
I have been here a week and 3 days, and I think I've gotten a lot done in that amount of time. I unpacked everything, I changed my number, I transferred to Walgreens, I'm learning my way around on the bus, and I'm even learning how to cook. I toured the school yesterday and met my admissions rep, Tina. She's really cool and the school is awesome. I can't wait to use the dark rooms. =D

I've even met a few new people. They seem really cool. I'm still trying to get use to this whole living alone thing. It's extremely lonesome but I'm adjusting. You just have to keep yourself occupied.

My apartment is located in North Oakland. It is kind of in the ghetto but not too bad. There are some scary people who live in my apartment. Last week some guy kept banging on the side door and yelling, "TOMMY!!!". And then a couple of hours later this guy was yelling, "HELP!!!" and I overheard these two guys fighting and one guy told the other to get out of his place. Something about holding a knife up to his throat and telling him that when his brothers get home they're going to kick his crackhead ass. O_O

Here are some pictures of my place. It's not anything fancy but it works for me. It's really close to school and work which is what really matters.

Outside




Side of the Building


View From Front Porch


Front Porch


Building Across the Street


Weird Doll Thing In a Window Across the Street


Living Room








Kitchen








Study Area




Bathroom






The Door That Leads to the Lobby So I Can Check My Mail


Bedroom




Records on Wall


My Flower Shasta (Hasn't Germinated Yet)


View Outside My Bedroom Window

So last Friday I got a very unexpected email. I submitted one of my photos for the Photography ArtWanted.com calendar for 2007 like a month ago and I hadn't really thought of it since. Well my photo got accepted and its' date is 3/25/2007. I am quite excited. Here's more info on the CALENDAR. OH and this is the photo I submitted. It's a creepy ceramic mask that's hanging in my hall.



I already pre-ordered the calendar and I should be getting it in mid-November. I can't wait. =D

I had nothing to do last Tuesday so I decided to paint over that extremely gay hoodie I have. I just painted over the design in acrylic paint that I had stored in my art bag from school. It's about time I make more use of that stuff in there. OH and I finally found my flippin' bottle of Endust that I thought Carrie had the whole time. OMG I feel so stupid. It was in my art bag since we left Arizona for Denver. I now remember why it's in there. After we finished packing and before the movers got there I cleaned my laptop and stuck the Endust in my art bag cause I didn't want to take it with me in the car. =/ So that solves the unsolved mystery of my beloved little bottle of computer cleaning spray.

OH here's some pictures of my painting.





Haha. It took me like 3 hours to paint that crap. And now all of a sudden I'm in the mood to paint on an easel. I'll probably suck but it'll be fun.

My head feels funny and I'm hungry.
I'm off to eat and watch Six Feet Under on Bravo.

My Laverne-like hoodie with my last name initial.
I made it myself. =D

Haha. A crazy subject I know.

Here's what the "666" refers to.


I have 666 Video Views on YouTube!!!
Which means I must have no life. =((

Coulrophobia is the fear of clowns.
I didn't know that was the phobia name.
I thought that was amusing.

OH and mentioning of clowns there was this educational video where a clown had a toothache and I could only watch like a minute of it. The freaking clown was scary as hell. He had little red x's on his face and he didn't talk. I think it's way creepier when they don't speak and just use those stupid fake facial expressions.

And yes I have the major itch to move once again. I'm going to try to be patient and save more money, but my family is really starting to drive me insane. I think even Arizona would be better than here. Just to be away from all their damn drama.

I've been looking online for places to move.
I think Pennsylvania might be nice. It's cheaper than California and New York and it's like 6 hours away from NY. Therefore it'd be easier for me to visit or maybe even move to New York. The thought of New York is still scary, but if I had the opportunity I think I would still move there. OH and the weather there seems quite nice and cool. I already found some 1 bedroom apartments for under $400, which isn't too bad. I could probably actually afford those.

I don't want to live in the south anymore than I have to, and I don't want to move back to AZ or CO. I have other places I can think of but I won't rule them out just yet. I'm still looking for a place where I'll be able to actually do something with my life that I love doing, which means it has to be a big city with a lot of art/media/design type jobs.

I'll figure it out...hopefully soon. The sooner I'm out of here, the better I'll be...I hope.

Here's the second roll.
I went to the park. 

I developed my first roll of film from my new camera.
It's a Sears KS Super.  Probably a mid-80's camera.
I believe they're discontinued now.  It's like the Pentax's sister camera. 
It's all manual and quite the task to use but it's neat.

Here are a few of my pictures that came out descent.

I don't know what is wrong with me tonight. I come home from work feeling fine. Then I suddenly get this really tired, dizzy feeling like I'm going to drop dead. I feel so light-headed right now. Maybe I'm just exhausted from work or maybe I'm malnourished. Fuck I don't know. I'm sick of feeling like shit, or something is wrong with me. And I'm always wanting to do something. I just don't want to sit back and relax. I want to get something done everyday. I push myself to do something productive, but yet seem to really get nothing done cause I'm too tired.

I've been calling friends for the past 2 days during my breaks at work, but seem to get ahold of almost nobody. And hardly anyone returns my calls. I highly doubt everyone is that fucking busy. I think they just don't care. Most of my friends seem to be flakey lately. I don't know. Do I even have friends? Most of the time I don't feel like it. I want that friend who'll be there for you no matter what, and will return your god-damn call every once in awhile!!!!

I seem to be the only one trying to stay in touch with these people. I should just give up and quit trying to reach out to nothing. They only seem to want to stay in touch via Myspace. How fucking lame is that?! I seriously should just delete the damn Myspace and see who actually calls me. I doubt anyone would.

I talked to an old friend the other night. That was nice. I didn't think this person would even talk to me anymore. I'm glad I feel like I reconnected with them. I'll most likely never hear from them again though. I know how this goes.

I also hate the way my life is right now. God I know I complain a lot and I don't have it that bad compared to some people, and I should be thankful and all that junk. But I still feel like I'm not doing as good as I should. I feel like I'm still stuck in high school mode trying to find myself and what I want to do. I'm 21 years old, I'd like to know by now what that is and be doing it. Life seems to just be passing me by. I'm becoming very impatient lately.

I'm already ready to move and start another life, but doing that on my own doesn't seem possible due to lack of financial stability. I need a better job, but it doesn't appear that it's that easy to get one. I only know one person I graduated with who seems to have a good graphic design job. One out of all 30 of us isn't that good.

OH and FUCK NEW YORK!!!
I refuse to live in that big, dirty cold scary city with all that terrorist shit.
I'd like to live in a nice, sunny place.
I'll find something, hopefully somewhere affordable with something for me.
I'd still like to live alone. Having my own place has always been a dream of mine.
I think it'd be nice. Without a roommate to mess it all up.

I'm tired and my vision is becoming blurry.
I hope my days off will make me feel better.

I feel like I'm going to cry.

So I think a lot has happened since last Friday. I called about the apartment balance and told them I would pay for it by money order. I was planning on paying for it by debit card over the phone, but they charge an additional $19.95 for that and it's totally not worth it. I sent Carrie a text message telling her about it, and I told her to reply just to let me know she received it. I just wanted her to acknowledge what was going on. She replied with, "Well i'll reply to ask wtf you blocked me for? I tried to apologize for some shit and it didn't send. I really don't think i did anything to deserve that.". I never replied. It's nice to know that she is/was sorry for some things but I don't understand why she has to have the attitude like I'm supposed to be afraid of her or something. And why she can't just CALL ME to apologize or even tell me off, rather than sending me stupid MySpace messages. We're more than just MySpace friends, we lived together for over 2 years. We were good friends. I don't understand why she won't actually talk to me. I refuse to call her anymore or even message her, unless something major comes up that involves her. It's time for her to grow up.

Now onto the good stuff. I hung out with Holly and Jennifer, pharmacy techs at Walgreens, Friday night. It was so much fun. It was originally just supposed to be Holly and me, and we were going to go to Rooster's but she decided to call Jennifer to see if she wanted to hang out. Jennifer is only 20 so she can't get into Rooster's. So she said she would meet us at the Ferris Wheel and then we would go to Kinkead's. I had no idea what Kinkead's was. All I knew was that it was the only place Jennifer could get into. Holly said it was fun. I kept asking her what it was and she told me it was a gay bar. Haha. Why does every time I go out something gay seems to happen? I said I would go, the one in AZ was alright.

Well we met Jennifer at the ferris wheel. She wanted to ride it after hearing my first experience on it. So we rode the ferris wheel and then the carousel. Haha. A total repeat of last weekend with the exception of different people. Well after we rode the ferris wheel and carousel we decided to head on to Kinkead's. When we got to the parking lot, Jennifer got a call from her friend Aaron who lives in Fayetteville. He wanted her to come over to hang out. After her persuading Holly, who had to work at 9 the next morning, for like 5 minutes we were on our way to Fayetteville. Haha. We never made it in the gay bar. What a shame.

Before we went to Fayetteville we had to go to Walgreens to drop off Holly's car. Then we rode to Mountainburg in Jennifer's car to pick up Holly's stuff for work tomorrow. We picked up some Blackberry Merlot and Jagermeister from Holly's house, which Holly and I drunk in the car. I hadn't eaten in almost 12 hours so I was already feeling it. When we got to Aaron's, we just hung out and really did nothing but it was fun just being with people my age. I didn't feel quite so lonely as I usually do.

So Jennifer got drunk and fell asleep around 5 AM, as did Holly. Haha. We had to get up in 2 hours in order to get her to work on time. I just lied on the couch watching MTV. I think I fell asleep around 6:30 so I got about a half-hour nap. I was so tired.

Dad called me a couple of times. He was worried. That made me feel bad and kind of annoyed at how parents are always so protective of their children even when they're adults, but that's their right so I forgive them.

It was a very fun weekend with 2 new friends. It seems as if I'm not having much trouble making new friends after all.

Now for the best thing that has happened to me since I've come home. I submitted one of my photos to Picture.com for the International Open Amateur Photography Contest. They have advanced my contest entry to semi-finalist. My photo has been automatically entered into final competition to be held this summer, where I could win $1,000 or maybe even the $10,000 Annual Grand Prize! I'm not so concerned with the money, though I could use it, but rather the fact that their Selection Committee thought my photo was good enough to make it this far. That makes me very proud of myself. I haven't been this excited for quite sometime.

Another great thing is that they want to publish my photo in their forthcoming anthology. This is awesome! I ordered my copy yesterday and even included an Artist's Profile so I could tell the story behind the photo and what it was about.

Here's the photo and my profile.

The World Outside
© Kevin Dao

This photo was taken New Year's Eve 2005 in Denver, CO. My friend and I stayed in a very nice hotel room on one of the top stories. I loved the view from the window overlooking the parking lot. I liked how all of the lights glistened with a soft yet vibrant glow, and how you could see all of the life below. I wanted to capture this beautiful feeling.

I made these out of boredom.
I really don't know.
haha.



P.S. I wish Dad would get over his mad spell. So annoying. >:(

Saturday night I went out with my friends Andrea and April. We went to Arlie Mucks in Fort Smith, some bar where Andrea was supposed to meet her friend Andrew who never showed up. Andrea bought me a Mai Tai, those things are soooo goooood. I love the pineapple juice. Mmmmmmmm. While drinking and conversing a bit. I asked Andrea if she ever went to a strip club. She said, "no". I told her I hadn't either. April has never been as well and asked us if we wanted to go. Andrea looked at me and asked, "do you wanna go?". I was like, "i guess, but how much does it cost we're both kinda broke?". April said, "five dollars" and that's exactly how much cash I had on me so I said, "okay let's go.".

So very random and unplanned we decided to go to Cheyenne's Gentlemen's Club and Sports Bar in Oklahoma. Haha. I was so nervous and I felt like a total pervert but it's just one of those things you have to experience before you die. Go to a strip club just to see what it's like. It was a little different than I expected. I wasn't expecting the women to all have shiny nipples for one thing. That kind of creep-ed me out. And I didn't know they had two rounds. One where they just dance and the other where they start to strip. How weird. I wasn't expecting the strippers to rub the guys' heads between their boobs and grab and smack their asses. That was so gross. OH and they also stuck their heads down between the guys' legs and moved around, and they stuck their crotches in the guys' faces. I was totally grossed out. I wanted to look at something descent but there was nothing of decency to view.

I also saw a couple of girls I went to school with. One was just there with her boyfriend, but it was still weird cause she was very Christian and perfect in high school. I would never expect to see her in a strip club. The other girl was a stripper. I don't remember her that well, but just the fact that I went to school with her was a bit odd.

I would really like to sit a stripper down and ask then how they do it for a living, and all of the rules and regulations of a strip club. I bet it would be interesting. The same thing with a prostitute. Now those would be some worthwhile conversations.

Haha. There was this girl dressed like a flapper who I swore was a man. Just the way she walked. It was like watching a gay man prance around the room. She was creepy. There was also Candy, the 35 year old Blond with the huge fake breasts. She had to be the grossest one. She wore these ugly pink leggy things and she was pretty plump.

There was this lesbian who sat near the stage and gave the strippers money. Between rounds they make this announcement, "head to the atm for more cash". She jumped up and was like, "ATM here I come!" with this huge smile on her face. I thought that was hilarious.

After an hour of being there. Andrea was ready to leave. In fact she was ready to leave about 5 minutes since we walked in the door. Haha. I don't blame her. I was ready to leave too. April was quite content which I thought was awesome. So we left the strip club just in time to see the lesbian back at the stage, smoking a cigarette and putting money into Candy's thong.

On our way home we saw the ferris wheel on Garrison Avenue. April looked at it and said, "Hey I want to ride the ferris wheel, we should ride the ferris wheel.". So Andrea turned around and we were at West End Park where we rode the carousel and then the ferris wheel. It was so much fun. I took lots of pictures of us laughing our asses off on the carousel and then screaming our heads off on the ferris wheel. I even got video footage of us getting off the ferris wheel. Haha. It was truly the best time I've had since being home.

It just shows that fun isn't in the place, but in the people who make it. You have to be a fun person to have fun. I always thought growing up that Arkansas was the most boring, terrible place in the world. But it was just because I never gave it a chance. I never allowed myself to be social and have fun here. That is probably one of my biggest mistakes. But it's never too late to have fun in a place you've always hated. I just learned that this past weekend. And while I'm home, I don't want the fun to stop. I'd like to have more adventures here before I head off on my continued journey out into the world to find myself. Though I'm finding bits and pieces of myself lying around here.

You can view VIDEO of us riding the ferris wheel if you'd like.

Here are some of the pictures from my going away surprise at Walgreens in Denver.
Scanning these made me sad. I miss them all. =*(

My Cake (I <3 Chocolate)


L to R: Sheila, Me, Laura, & Syla


Debbie & Me


mmmmmmmm CAKE


Ellie & Me


awwwwww


April & Me

I'M GOING TO START DOING MY HAIR LIKE THIS.
I ALREADY HAVE THE FEATHER BOA EYEBROWS.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!11111111

This gets me excited for some reason.

I am terrible at updating this journal. I would like to do so more often but I never seem to have the time, or I don't feel like it. A lot has happened since my last entry. I'm back home again. Arkansas hasn't changed much since I was last here. I now notice how small this place is and how most people have a country accent. I've never even noticed this before. It's amusing. I hate how small and close together everything is but it's also kind of nice and not so stressful. And the country accents are fun to listen to. I know I had a terrible one when I first moved to Arizona but I'd like to think it's gotten better.

My family is still as I remember them and our house hasn't changed drastically. It's nice to be back home, but I still feel quite empty and I'm still longing for more. I love my family but I'm already to get back out there and get started again with my life. I know I need to just wait and give myself time before I make a huge decision, because this time there may be no turning back. All I know is that the next time I make some decision about moving somewhere it's going to be for all the right reasons. Not just for a change and not because it's the first thing that came up. Those aren't good enough for me. I'm going to have an actual purpose this time. It being either school, a job that I already get before I move, or both. And I have also decided that I'm going to try to live by myself, even if it means living in an extremely tiny overpriced studio apartment. No more fucking roommates especially if they're friends cause from experience it may ruin your friendship in the end. I'd rather have my own tiny space to call my own than live with someone.

OH and friends. It seems once you move away from them, staying in touch seems to be impossible. I'm tired of calling and getting nothing in return. I've decided my old friends are OLD and it's time to make new ones and make memorable moments with them. I can only do so much to stay in touch. If people were really good friends it seems they would think of you and give you a call occasionally to see how things are going. I'm tired of being the person who always does that.

I already started at Walgreens on June 5. It's a lot easier than my last Walgreens but it's still the same repetitive work. I should keep looking for something better. I still miss my Denver co-workers. I've talked to a few of them since I've been home. I even sent Walgreens a postcard. HA.

My last day of work in Denver was very emotional. My manager Sheila threw me a surprise going away party and it was so sweet. She got me a cake and card that everybody signed. Ellie got me a separate card with $50 in it. She was in tears. That made me so sad. She looked at everybody and said, "I worked with him every night. He's like a son to me. He's my Angel.". That is the sweetest thing anyone has ever said about me.

Several pictures were taken. I'll have to post them as soon as I scan them.

When I got back to my apartment that night. I was re-reading the cards and started sobbing. This was the first time I cried in years. Then later that night I cried again. I just couldn't believe how nice these people were to me and how they cared so much. It was endearing.

Now my tears are dried and I'm ready to move on as soon as I know for sure what's best for me.

Forecast for Sagittarius
by Your Astrologer, Kelli Fox, and Astrology.com

17 June 2006: Any discouraging signs you've been seeing lately shouldn't get you down -- the road you're on has quite a few twists and turns, and you need to be ready to take them as they come. Things are way better than you think right now, so what's with this cloud of gloom and doom? Flush it out with a healthy dose of good humor and you can get back on track with a brighter attitude. You are much closer to your goal than you realize, so keep on going.